God’s Got This

The title of today’s blog is “God’s Got This” otherwise known as “My Life on Plan B Part 2”.

While thinking and praying about today’s posting, I decided to put the “what we do while we’re waiting” portion of this segment on hold and instead give you a little backstory.

Years ago I had a major cancer scare.  It’s interesting where the mind tends to go when you get the news that you will need to have a biopsy done.  You start to look back over your life at certain events and maybe even wish you had done things differently.  You’ll have plenty of time to think about your possible outcomes while you are once again waiting or in a holding pattern.  First of all, you wait for the date of the biopsy to come to pass and psyche yourself up for that, especially if you hate needles and can’t stand the sight of blood (but that’s an entirely different blog).  Then after the biopsy comes even more waiting.  Waiting now on the results of said biopsy.

Waiting is definitely not my strong suit, as my husband, Jon can attest to.  He did his best to try to help me take my mind off of the results yet to come.  That man can always make me smile, though during this time my smiles were often forced.  Strangely enough, you almost feel like your not really in the moment, oftentimes “spacey” and just going through the motions.  Needless to say, those days are a blur and I can tell you that I totally wasted all of my time.  I did manage to have several conversations with God.  Not the usual kinds, you know when you promise him you’ll live better and do whatever he says, or give half of your salary away, etc.   Though some of those thoughts most likely came to mind.   I do remember feeling a little lost and sad at the thought of missing milestones in my children’s lives or not living to see my grandchildren grow.  (no, I don’t have any of those yet…but I remain hopeful).

I decided to look up.  I really had no choice.  David tells us in Psalm 37:4 to “Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.”  So that’s what I did.  I did my best to lay all of my cares and concerns at his feet, while reminding him of  some of his promises in the Bible.  I clung to my all time favorite scripture Jeremiah 29:11 as if I wouldn’t be able to breathe without it;  “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”  He goes on to say in Jeremiah 29:12 “Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all of your heart.”   Through many tears, and lots of prayer I was seeking him and a healthy outcome to my biopsy results.   Nope, was not even close to Pollyanna Perfect and fell into self pity on quite a few occasions, but came back to that thankful place knowing that God was in control.  Had a few people praying for me including my prayer warrior mother.  I thank God for her calming words of wisdom and speaking continual health over me and my family.

The day finally came to get the biopsy results.  I drove to the doctor’s office alone and somehow made it to the parking lot before the tears began to slowly slide down my face.  So I paused to catch my breath, closed my eyes and said a little prayer.  In a sweet and calming voice I heard “I’ve got this”.  Nothing more nothing less.  To date, that’s the first and only time I’ve heard God actually speak to me!  (Though I sincerely hope it’s not the last time)   He cared enough about me, to hold me in that moment and give me a message.  The peace and warmth that enveloped me was the most amazing feeling I’ve ever felt!  It was God’s love wrapped up in a hug.  At that exact moment, I knew I was going to be fine as long as he was with me.

The test results came back negative, everything was fine.  I am still thanking God for that miracle!  But every so often, God also winks at us.  I love it when we actually know where the wink came from at its time of occurrence.  I’m a little thick-headed and often acknowledge the wink in hindsight.   For me, the winks and blessings come in very unexpected places.  This place happened to be in a Current Catalog, you know, the ones that sell cards and little gift items?  I admit I usually throw them away without looking at them, but for some reason I glanced through its pages only to find in a small corner, a red, wooden framed picture that stated “I GOT THIS–GOD”.  This was before the “God’s Got This” craze had started, and I wasted no time in ordering one.  To this day, it’s a comforting reminder to me of how much God loves each and every one of us.

What does this mean for you?  Remember in my first blog when I said that God is no respecter of persons (Acts 10:34 Then Peter replied “I see very clearly that God shows no favoritism”)?  What he has done for me he can do for you.  It’s not an isolated event.  He shows us his love, mercy and winks every day.  We get so busy with our daily lives that we sometimes miss it.  It’s oftentimes in our quiet moments that we hear his whispers or get a glimpse of his daily blessings.  Dare to give it a try.  Maybe find a little quiet time where nothing has to be done, you can just sit at his feet and receive.   You never know, he may just give YOU a new thing too.  {Isiah 43:19 NIV  “See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?’}

I’m looking forward to hearing about your new adventures, too!  Drop me a note, I’d be happy to pray for you.

Namaste,

The Fitness Dr

 

 

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